Rippin and Tearin wrote:
For me it wasn't so much that I didn't think my family/friends would miss me, in fact I knew they would. I did on occasion think that the lives of a couple people close to me might be better (long run) without me.
The trouble is you are just so low and feel so much in a hole, that you can't really see a way out, and therefore all your thoughts are clouded by negativity and desperation. You want a better life for yourself, and in my case more so for the people close to me. Therefore suicide can feel like a feasible way to change things.
Of course it is not the right option, and of course there are ways to get your self out of that hole. But at the time its an incredibly difficult place to be in and make the right decisions.
Sorry to hear of your own bad times and struggles brother and glad you are here today talking Footy shit and sharing with the boys